OSI Prompt 125: Preponderance

Preponderance of Positives

Moving on with the inner strength
Gained over years of contemplation
Charting newer, unexplored paths
I found my beautiful world of thoughts,
And the journey through troughs and peaks
Saw a novice’s dream getting fulfilled
As I published my maiden book
‘A Little More Than Ordinary”
And sought acknowledgement
From the one who had shown me
The path very many years ago
But acknowledgement didn’t come alone
It came along with the contrasting twins
Masked Appreciation and Critical Judgment ..

No, English didn’t suit me and I needed to
Write in my own mother tongue
Preponderance was exercised
Once again, at the first opportunity
Nothing appeared to have changed
In spite of distance of years in between
Superiority looked straight in my face
Was it flaunting of wisdom as a matter of right
That perhaps had been bestowed
Respecting intelligence
During those days of innocence
Or were those my own complexes
That made me unnecessarily read
Even that what was not really intended..

But then I had to take it in my stride
Because it’s pretty natural that
A view from top of the mountain
Will make even the tallest tree look small
And I was no more than a little sapling
Vainly struggling to grow
Under a large tree all these years
Destiny had taken away my mother
And uprooting me , essential for my story,
Had transplanted me far away from my hometown
Where my mother-tongue stayed confined
To the environs inside my own four walls
And then to be expected to write
In my own mother tongue
But then perhaps it was to happen.....

With one more push from
Another place, unexpected and unseen
Finally I expressed in the language
That I had internalized perhaps
In my infantile days,
Hopefully meeting expectations partially
Because I had used English script
Picking up fond memories of my ‘Childhood’
Who had walked along throughout
Holding my finger, often resting quietly
In the warmer corners of my heart,
And I have never been able to
Let it go…for without it, I know
I couldn’t have grown-up..
And this wonderful companionship
Has resulted in preponderance of positives
Over negatives, keeping me as I said
Most of the time, in a happier state of mind..